Last Week's Brief Visit With Office Crush 2.0
The last week has been just too crazy for me. It's all because of the Office Crush Version 2.0. Last Wednesday (March 8), the OC V2.0 stopped my the office. I knew a few weeks ago that she'd be in town for her Spring Break. I wasn't for sure when. So it was in the middle of the afternoon when OC V2.0 stopped by. A little knock outside my cubicle, I turned around and there she was. She looked so beautiful. We immediately hugged. Just holding her was enough for me.
We spoke for only a few minutes. She was busy trying to say HI to everyone in the office so that's why I didn't get to talk to her much, but it was enough for me. She was saying that was having a good time so far in Dallas. She said that she was leaving backing to New York on Monday (this past, by the way).
She looked so HOT. I tried not to pay that much attention, but she did looked HOT. She was wearing jeans and a t-shirt that was a little too short to be tucked in. It was really hard to concentrate then.
As she left, my mind went into overdrive and I couldn't stop thinking about her. It's been happening ever since that short visit last week. There are certain songs that remind me her. To be honest, it'll bring me to tears because I really want to be with her more than anything but circumstances won't let me. One---she's still in New York. Two---she still might have a boyfriend. Three---she might be back working at where I am at.
I have had many crushes before. Some might call me "girl crazy". My crush on OC V2.0 is really intense. There have been 2 other occasions that I've have so much intense feelings for a woman. If there has been only 2 other times I've really had these intense feelings, something's going on here. The feelings that I have for OC V2.0 make me feel that I am in high school. I've tried so hard to get her out of my mind. The more I get her out of my mind, the more I am falling for her.
When I dream about her, I don't dream about having $ex with her. I dream about holding her, touching her, just being around her. I dream about her smile.
Part of me wants her to work at my job this summer. That'd mean I'd get to see her. Part of me doesn't want her to work at my job because I won't be able to concentrate.
I really want to pursue her. I think though that she's too good for me. She's at a college in New York where she's about to graduate. She wants to go to law school. She's got so many hopes and dreams. I feel that I can't compete with that. Part of me feels that she deserves better. That and she's only 22. I am 31. I feel old when I think about that.
I really don't know what to do. I can't let this opportunity slide again.
My heart aches for her.
We spoke for only a few minutes. She was busy trying to say HI to everyone in the office so that's why I didn't get to talk to her much, but it was enough for me. She was saying that was having a good time so far in Dallas. She said that she was leaving backing to New York on Monday (this past, by the way).
She looked so HOT. I tried not to pay that much attention, but she did looked HOT. She was wearing jeans and a t-shirt that was a little too short to be tucked in. It was really hard to concentrate then.
As she left, my mind went into overdrive and I couldn't stop thinking about her. It's been happening ever since that short visit last week. There are certain songs that remind me her. To be honest, it'll bring me to tears because I really want to be with her more than anything but circumstances won't let me. One---she's still in New York. Two---she still might have a boyfriend. Three---she might be back working at where I am at.
I have had many crushes before. Some might call me "girl crazy". My crush on OC V2.0 is really intense. There have been 2 other occasions that I've have so much intense feelings for a woman. If there has been only 2 other times I've really had these intense feelings, something's going on here. The feelings that I have for OC V2.0 make me feel that I am in high school. I've tried so hard to get her out of my mind. The more I get her out of my mind, the more I am falling for her.
When I dream about her, I don't dream about having $ex with her. I dream about holding her, touching her, just being around her. I dream about her smile.
Part of me wants her to work at my job this summer. That'd mean I'd get to see her. Part of me doesn't want her to work at my job because I won't be able to concentrate.
I really want to pursue her. I think though that she's too good for me. She's at a college in New York where she's about to graduate. She wants to go to law school. She's got so many hopes and dreams. I feel that I can't compete with that. Part of me feels that she deserves better. That and she's only 22. I am 31. I feel old when I think about that.
I really don't know what to do. I can't let this opportunity slide again.
My heart aches for her.
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