I Am Still Here

I know I haven't said much here lately, but I am still here.
I am doing OK.

I don't have a crush on OC Version 2.0 anymore. That's kind of a long story and I really don't want to talk about it now. Maybe later. There's no one here that I want to be with. Yes---I talk to a lot of girls and have lots of girl friends. I just need to start focusing on finding a girlfriend.

She's Still Here

Office Crush V2.0 is still around at work. I haven't talked as much to her this time around, but my feelings for her still remain. When it comes to her, my archnemisis is her cellphone. I HATE her cellphone. That's the main reason why I haven't talked to her as much is that when I see her in the breakroom, she's on her cellphone. Sometimes, she'll glance over my way and wave HI or say HI in silence. It still makes my day.

Her birthday is coming up. I am going to get her something. I am just not sure what to get her.

PLUS---I hate Wisconsin, but that's another story.............

OC V2.0 Update 7/14/06

This week has been crazy. I don't where to start. It's kinda my fault. I decided to get curious and checked if OC V2.0 had a Myspace profile. It turns out that she did. That was my mistake. What I found out was something that maybe I shouldn't have found out.

#1 HER PROFILE SAYS THAT SHE'S IN A RELATIONSHIP. You know, that didn't surprise me.

#2 SHE'S LOOKING FOR DATING, FRIENDS, AND NETWORKING. She's looking to have her cake and eat too. That didn't bother me.

#3 SHE DOES NOT WANT CHILDREN. That really didn't bother me. I would've thought she'd want kids later. Never say never.

#4 SHE'S BI-SEXUAL. What? My jaw dropped when I found out. I never thought of her of playing both ways. I thought that she was too smart for that. I don't have a problem with bisexuality.

Now I can't see her the same way again. Knowing that last thing, it has changed my perspective on things on her. If she was someone that I never knew, I would've thought that it was the greatest thing. Since I know her, it's different.

I still care about her. I'd still like to be with her. I don't know if I can get over this hump. She doesn't know that I know. If she did find out that I knew, I can sure forget about it. That's what I get for being nosy. I was just curious if she had a Myspace page. There are a bunch of people that I know that I am curious if they have a Myspace page.

I'll keep you updated...........

The Tease Update

I get an email from the Tease the other day. It had been about 3 months or so that I've heard from her. Same home # but has a new cell #. I call her cell # and left a message. She calls later that day. Wanted to get together with me. I told her that I could (what I didn't tell her was the 1)wrestling was on and I had to watch it and 2)I didn't feel like paying for dinner because that's what happens ALL the time.

She wanted to get together because she had something very important to tell me. I then asked how were things with her boyfriend. She said that he was no longer her boyfriend but is not her fiancee. That was a little shocker. I said congrats and made small talk with her. That was it.

Do I care that she's getting married now? Not really. She was just an fucking tease anyway. She is so materialistic and expects every guy friend of her's to pay for dinner.

Months ago before she ever got engaged, she said that she wanted me in her wedding. I am thinking inside---Oh HELL NO. I hope she's forgotten about that.

She wants to get together next week. I think that I am going to be busy again.

The Summer Return Of Office Crush Version 2.0

Last Monday, OC Version 2.0 made the return to my life. As usual during her last quick visit to see me, I was not expecting it at all. I had sent her a few emails but no replys. I could understand it since she was trying to complete her senior year of college.

I was kinda tipped off of her return in a way. A friend of mine at work who I've poured my heart out about OC V2.0 thought she saw her in the hallway earlier that day but she wasn't for sure. So my friend emailed me and asked if I knew she was here. I replied with a no. After that email, it made me wonder "Is OC V2.0 back?" Shortly after that thought came to my mind, she reappeared into my life.

OC V2.0 looked as beautiful as ever. She hasn't changed a bit. She said that she was back working where I am at for at least the summer. It's possible that she may stay past that. She also said that she wasn't planning to start applying for law school until the fall.

I've seen her at least once a day ever since she returned (except for yesterday since I took the day off). It's really hard to try to supress my feelings for her. I shouldn't try to even think about going out with her since I really hate office romances (though I never really been in one).

I remember when she left last August to go back to New York. I was heartbroken. I didn't think I'd ever see her again.

Judge me if you want to, but I really like her. I don't know a lot about her, but I'd love to get to know her in every way possible. I want to be able to tell her how I feel. My heart aches for her badly.

The Other Day

One day last week, I had phone sex with my PSG. It was really the first time in about 3 months that we had phone sex. It was amazing as always. In between, we really hadn't had a lot of time for numerous reasons. Last week was awesome. I wisht that we could do more often. I am sure she wishes for the same thing too. I miss her.

You know who you are----I love you.

Happy Birthday To My PSG

Next week is my PSG's birthday. I give mad love to her.

It's been awhile since her and I have had real passionate phone sex. Almost 3 months. We've spoken on the phone quite a bit. It's a little complicated now since she has a guy in her life. I am happy that she's found someone.

There has been a few times that I've jacked off on the phone for her. It was good.

I can't wait to have phone sex with her again.

I love you PSG! Miss ya!! :o)

The Weekend At The Lake

I am not one for going to the lake, but I must admit that I had fun. Last weekend, I went to Lake Texoma near Pottsboro, TX. I went with my friend from work and her son (Her daughter and husband would join us the following day). My friend's in-laws have a condo near the lake and a houseboat. Didn't get to ride on the houseboat because of mechanical problems.

I didn't realize that there would be a good amount of HOT looking chicks there. Swimsuits galore. Ahhh and they were wet too. I tried to keep a clean mind about. Then again---I am a guy.

The main reason why I went to the lake with my friend was because of this AC/DC tribute band called Back In Black. I had never seen them, but I had heard that they were really good. To be honest, I was not disappointed. The lead singer was a dead ringer for the real 2nd lead singer Brian Johnson. They guys kicked major a**. The cool thing was that I got a couple of beers from the bass player while he was onstage. That was great. He didn't have to, but I wasn't going to refuse a beer.

I did have my picture taken twice with a bunch of drunk girls that were by the front of the stage. Once was with their camera and the 2nd was with my camera. Why? I have no idea. The first time was their camera. I spoke with one of them for a little bit. No exchange of phone numbers or anything like that. She was HOT. I wanted to f*** her. I did see a ring on "that finger". Will I ever see her again? Probably not unless I go to Lake Texoma again.

The weekend was very relaxing though. It was nice to get away from it all--the city. I would love to go back there.

I learned one thing about this trip---take a pack a cigarettes and a lighter with you. You never know when a HOT gal would want to bum a smoke off of you.